Somehow I managed to finish the essay. It took a little tweaking and editing this morning but I had it sent off by noon. There were plenty of moments during its creation when I thought the essay was impossible to finish. Now I just have to wait for the results (and get on with planning the qualitative project).
Perhaps not in entirely unrelated ways, I’m back to my old eating patterns again and I have oodles of energy as a result. In fact, I was overtaking some poor soul on the Big Hill home. I was zooming up it, pedalling at 8mph (normally I go up that hill at about 5 mph). It won’t last of course. It’s a blip I knew was coming but it’s still very enjoyable.
The other enjoyable thing is the euphoria. My mood is high, despite the study-stress and today I was even enjoying moments of complete self-acceptance. Basically, it just felt good to be me. Plain me. Little me. Nothing-special me but it was good to BE me. That’s the sort of feeling everyone deserves. Why do we tend to listen to our negative voice? You know the one: the nagging voice, the one that tells us how we’re not measuring up. The one who reminds of our failures and shortcomings. The one that points to others as being better in some way. That voice was silent today. It’s been great. I just wish I could feel like this all the time.
Where did you get this high from? I want some of that…although i’ve been feeling a pretty consistent ‘ok’…which is better than the other alternative I suppose.
Comment by pinkjellybaby — 9 April, 2009 @ 8:45 am |